Song of Awesome - Babel

Babel by Mumford & Sons

We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve

I've recently witnessed the beginnings of a friend's abusive relationship with their family. I've seen difficult parents before but this was beyond that. I also recently watched the movie Perks of Being A Wallflower. A wonderful movie where the quote, "We accept the love we think we deserve" originated (as far as I know). I have a fear of abusive relationships, which may sound silly but the thought literally makes my chest tighten and my stomach churn. People in abusive relationships may not know they're in one. They even make excuses for the abusers. Please, if you see someone you know in this situation, take time to help them realize and break free from this.
No one deserves to be abused. If you are in this situation and you are reading this, YOU DO NOT DESERVE THAT! You are better than that. You are beautiful and amazing and I wish I knew you so I could get to know you because I just know that you are amazing. Find someone to love you. Find a friend. I'm here. Shoot me a message any time of the day and I'll get back to you. You can find love.

Self-discovery... Pt. 1

Right now, I'm in that state where I'm always confused and emotional and crazy. A state most people my gae go through. I honestly didn't know why I was feeling this way and I realized I depended on my best friend TOO much. I was at a point where I couldn't make MYSELF happy. I hated that I was like that and I finally realized, I wasn't myself and I didn't know who I was. So I set myself on a path of discovery.
In order to "find myself", I decided to cut myself off from my best friend for a bit. Not that she was harmful but she made me different. I wasn't that confused child-like person around her. And like I said, I needed to be in that state to understand that state and change that state, if that makes sense. Then I lied down in bed before bed or on the ride before work and thought... about simple things. Like what I like or don't like. Knowing simple things like this makes it easier to know why you feel certain ways about people/things. I'm still in this stage but I have a plan. I have a notebook that I also use for my creative writing that I'm now using to record myself. Later on, I plan on making a timeline. That way I'll be able to know who I was and more importantly, who I've become.
On the journey to know who you are, it's important to take it slow. You don't want to break your brain. Don't overwhelm yourself. You aren't the same person you were before and don't expect to know yourself the same second you think about it. It can take months or years. You might constantly have to find yourself if you're an ever changing person. You won't be the same person today as you will be in 10 years. It's important to know yourself at the moment however.
Pro tip: “The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others.” -- Mahatma Gandhi
Being self-less is always a good way to be happy. Not sure how it works, but making other people happy is usually a sure-fire way to make yourself happy.
“Sometimes you hit a point where you either change or self destruct.” ― Sam Stevens

Update

So, I was gone, now I'm back, hopefully for good! =D How are my lovelies doing? I've been so busy!
I just graduated high school and I'm going to school next week and I finally got a job but, I've come back!
If you're new to the blog, I do random posts about all types of things and post the occasional music videos.
Update on my social networking sites:
Pinterest
Tumblr (for fitness)
Tumblr (for everything else)
Those are really the only things I frequent these days. Any requests, KawaiiBawse Nation?

Sail - Song of Awesome!!

Sail - Awolnation

This song is BREATHTAKING! I can have it on repeat ALL day.

Bruno Mars - Song of Awesome!

Bruno Mars - When I Was Your Man
I love this song. It's so beautiful and definitely one of his best! Enjoy!

Random Moments: Nails, Nails, and Food

G-ma nails. 

We made U-Mami burgers. AH-Mazing

Writing back-handed compliments in Korean. 

Did my G-ma's nails. Attempt at Ombre/Gradient.

My watercolor nails

Watercolor 2

Post rain day out with my pals!

Took a trip up north!

                          

Made more couples.

Got bored so I made this cute couple!

   

My violin posing with a scarf! VOGUE!

My Natural Hair inspiration! Naptural85.

Kawaii Bawse: Pinterest and Tumblr

HEY! How's everyone? =D

Well, as you all know, I use the internet, blogs especially, to express myself and share things with the world that they may not have known. And Blogger, as much as I love it, is not the only way to do that. As you guys know, I'm a photo junkie and love to take pics of all kinds of things: myself, my friends, nature, etc... And I'll usually share those kind of things here with you guys. But sometimes, I find pictures on the internet that I might like to save for later, and that's where Pinterest and Tumblr come in. Sites like these tend to be for pictures but you can also use them as inspiration for things that you like.

Me and my friends enjoying ourselves at Oktoberfest

Me and my friends playing with glowsticks

G.N.O. and playing Just Dance

Right now, I'm really into losing weight and becoming healthy and fit, not skinny! So that's what the Kawaii Bawse Tumblr focuses on. I'm a fitblr which basically means I focus on fitness. The Kawaii Bawse Pinterest page however is for all things. I do have a Weight Loss board called Shedding there which features weight loss pics but I also have a board called, Because which has random pictures and reasons why I like/posted them.Along with my Natural Hair board and others, I tend to post a lot of things. Which everyone should. Of course the internet is not the only way to do this. You could always Scrapbook or keep a journal or just relive them with your friends. Remembering the little things are important. 

Visiting France with my dad

Just have some Fun.

Bentos Galore!!!

What are Bentos? Bentos are Korean/Japanese (usually) lunch boxes.
What's so special about them? Nothing in particular, they're just the new big thing. They sometimes come pre-sectioned for people who want to plan out their meals and they come in all different shapes and sizes.
What do you put in a Bento? Honestly, you can put in anything that you want. Usually, the intent is to put in something healthy.

Alright, enough Q&A. Here's the basic on Bentos. They're adorable lunchboxes that Americans have become obsessed with. They can help you control your intake on food and even lose weight, which is Why I love them. I love to put in traditional (with my own twist, of course) Korean and Japanese food in them, like homemade Bulgogi or Unakyu (don't knock it 'till you've tried it!).
Now, of course I'm going to tell you where to buy these AH-MAZING contraptions. (= A great site is Bento and Co.(s/n::: there is a "change to english" button in the top right-hand corner) which sells all types. You can get the more designer types for yourself or spouse or even a friend, or the more cute ones for your kids. Now, if you're on a budget, you can always go to Ebay and get brand new Bentos for you buck!
On the topic of what to fill your Bentos with, there's a little place called Just Bento which contains Bento basics recipes, ideas, reasons to switch to Bentos, and more. If these sites don't tickle your fancy, Cute center has an extended list of Bentos and other kawaii things.
Bentos are awesome, cute, and perfect for Kawaii Bawse Nation. ;)

Something old, something new....

So we all those clothes stuck in our closet that we're going to donate....someday....(or never!). You just don't seem to be motivated to clean them out or you just can't let go. So, don't! Transform them into something you'll love again. Browsing the internet for girly things, I found this: Make A Cardi. You literally take one of your old shirts, that may not fit you anymore, and make it into a cardigan. It's a great way to recycle the things in your closet!
Watching DearNaptural85 today, I saw a video of her making many uses for a Maxi Skirt that were so cute and realized half the stuff I own can be transformed somehow(if you want to buy a maxi skirt, Polyvore has really cute ones). Why not? It's a new look and you save money! =D Before you know it, you have a new purse or scarf. You could even watch shows like What Not To Wear to get ideas.
If all else fails, make something not fashion related. Like a sock puppet or teddy(A beautiful mess' sock puppets). Don't waste things and throw them away because you'll regret it soon enough.
Ideas for Transformation and Videos.

    

Scrapbooking

Really Cute Idea

First of all, I'm a picture junkie. I love taking pictures of myself, my friends, and our moments. Or just anything that catches my eye. I honestly think everyone should. When you're feeling down, you look back at them and you smile remembering what was and what could be.
On that note, scrap-booking is a wonderful way to record those amazing memories. They allow for captions and doing it with your friends is awesome. I have an in progress one I'm working on with my best friend and this being my senior year, I plan on making another for that. Taking pictures to record those momentous occasions is awesome. Make it fun. If your life sucks then this is even better. Savor and enjoy to the fullest those rare shiny moments. They are gold!
"Life is like a roller coaster, live it, be happy, enjoy life."  -- Avril Lavigne

There are a lot of sites to buy cheap scrapbook stuff. Walmart is always great but if you have a little money to spend stores like Michaels or Hobby Lobby are great at a good price. You could always Pinterest for cool at home ideas (i.e. Vintage Scrapbooking) or even Twitter (i.e. Scrapbookcom).
If you have any cool scrapbooks you've made, let me know! I'll post mine up to....eventually.
s/n::: Yes, I did take the picture and yes I know I'm no photographer. (=

A blank cavas, waiting for you

Creative Idea

Song of Awesome

Norah Jones' Chasing Pirates was the song I chose to share. It's soft and beautiful and so random. Enjoy Kawaii Bawse Nation. (=

Dream BIG

Right now, I'm watching Panda and Hedgehog, a Kdrama, and it makes me want to be a patisserie so I can bake wonderful things and have people enjoy it. And we've all had those moments when TV glorifies something so much so that we begin to crave it as if it was our own idea. Usually, I'll pass it off and move on with what my original life plans are, but today I realized that I don't have to. Sure, I don't have to and most likely won't open my own restaurant, but I can still learn to make amazing deserts and share them.
This goes for all dreams anyone has ever dreamed but "reality" kicked in. Don't give up your dream but change it to fit you better. You'll be happier this way and you'll also be fulfilled. So one day I'll make amazing desserts like White Chocolate Raspberry Cheesecake or Tiramisu Layer Cake and I'll share it with my friends and family, because being a patisserie is my dream and I won't give up on it.
S/n::: I've gotten good reviews on Panda and Hedgehog so I decided to watch it.
"Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world." -- Harriet Tubman

Panda and Hedgehog